Loving someone more than yourself is bullshit! He's not kind, sweet and careful of me. He just know how to hurt me physically, mentally and emotionally but I can't leave him, I can't find my courage to leave him because I know even though I am emotionally exhausted I still love him so much. But my forbearance has it end, our baby doesn't deserve his wrath. Our baby's existence awaken the courage that has been sleeping since I love this man. He doesn't have the rights to know about our baby, my baby. He never really love me and I am sure that he will treat my baby the same on how he's maltreating me.