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As It Was...

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Time 2h 1m

I sometimes wonder,Why were we pulled apart?Why did i even get the pleasure to have you to myself,Why did you change,change to the extent that we don't even know us anymore?.


"I hope you can see the shape that I'm in while he's touching your skin,This thing upon me howls like a beast, you flower you feast.."
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"Hate me?" He asked hopelessly.

"Missed you" he said as a lone tear slipped down his cheeks.
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"You said you cared and you missed me too and I'm well aware i write too many songs about you"All Rights Reserved

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Addicting (L.s AU)✔ by Onyxisis

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In our planet we are filled with greed and false belief. But when I saw him I found my peace. Ever since Niall girlfriend Celeste broke up with him, he has been in pieces. He can't seem to love anybody else. Never really happy. But he was never in love. Never had a friend. Didn't know what it was. Didn't know how to dream. Didn't know love. One day when his principal ends school for a week because of something that was going on, on the news Niall's life changed and it has never been the same since then. In our planet we don't kill one another we don't take love for granted. It's a gift from the mothers Justin Is not your normal human. He's not accepted as a human. A different species. An alien. What? Justin is left on his own after a tragic accident to his family. He is the only one that survived. Landing on a planet full of greed, hate, lies, darkness and evil. Now why would you leave someone like Justin there to a place that is like hell. In your planet you are filled with greed and false belief.............We came here to bring you..........

DEFENCE // LARRY STYLINSON // LOUIS TOMLINSON by louissfallenangel

"No, no. No talking little bug, this is the part where you listen" he cuts me off before I can finish. I'm disappointed in myself for complying to his orders. I told myself when I left him that I wouldn't let him control me like this anymore. But here I am, pinned to the bathroom wall, with his hand securely fastened around my now throbbing erection, feeling my body surrender to Harry's commands. Louis and Harry have a toxic relationship, one that no matter how many times Louis tries to leave, he finds himself back and falling surrender to Harry. It isn't that he doesn't love the dominance that Harry holds when they are together, its the fact that he only feels like he knows half of his life. Harry, always a complex, dark character, holds so many secrets that he doesn't even know how to explain or understand himself. But what he does know, is that his love for Louis is something he can never lose, he knows that the day Louis decides he doesn't want him anymore, there will be no reasons left to live. Just how far will Harry go to protect his secret life, in order to keep his relationship safe, knowing that every secret is slowly tearing them apart.

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Let Me In (Larry Stylinson AU) by dorothea_8484

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Only You •Louis Tomlinson• (COMPLETED) by HollieTomlin

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