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"If I'm trapped in this closet, I want to be trapped with him"

Jasper Elliot. Quiet, calm, anxious foster kid. He's been through a lot. The universe seems to definitely hate him. It blessed him with a mother who ditched, an abusive father, a slight drug problem, an assortment of foster homes that made it extremely clear they didn't want him and a boy that used to beat the absolute shit out of him.

That boy was Benjamin.

Benjamin Jones. Loud, aggressive, impatient golden boy. Everyone thinks he's got it all. Star player on the soccer team, a stepfather with a shitload of money and the hottest girl in school is his girlfriend. The universe seems to love him. But maybe it doesn't. Maybe he's just really good at pretending.

JJ and Benji have always hated each other. Despised each other. They're complete opposites; one boy releases his anger in the worst possible ways and the other keeps it all bottled up inside.

But it's senior year. And maybe they're more alike than they think. They both have a dangerous secret that threatens to tear apart everything they've worked so hard for. No one can ever know this secret.

But while God watches, fate forces their hearts to align. 

Maybe they can make it through this together.

Or maybe everything will crumble to pieces.

Only the universe can decide.

Content Warning: This book contains drug use, violence and LOTS of explicit language.

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