Drowning in depression
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Publikasi terakhir Sab, Jan 28, 2023
WARNING : Includes self harming,Alot of dark and depressed stuff like sucide.
If triggering then please don't read and if you do then please do vote and comment.
Will be updated when I need to let some emotions out.
Thought I was healing, thought I was finally getting it right,till I realized I was only just at the surface cause now it feels like am drowning,it's choking and I can't breathe .....and am scared I'll never be able to fix me.
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