Miss YAMA's Diaries
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Last published Wed, Apr 13, 2022
WARNING: MAY CONTAIN SENSITIVE TOPICS.
A collection of jazz music and beat poetries, a Lana Del Ray themed cassette playing on the background and the fresh spring breeze hits me from the balcony. I went through my books as i skipped school today. It isn't that pleasant of a time but this is the last year of school anyway, i have some left over carrots from last night, a carrot cake would be pleasant.
i check for messages from him but they didn't seem to appear yet and i watched some anime. I'm 17 now and there are so many things i still have to know, the lack of a man for almost all my life doesnt put any impact on my daily life since my father had never lived with me, and the one man i love but he lives in a different state, its been 2 years since i met him. He is an artist, he said he would get back after he makes it big with his animation company and art academy ...... hmm it does not really bother me honestly, just that in the end of the day .... my heart feels empty.
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