This is hard. My friend said that I should start a journal, so I don't get too upset. And the worst is, no one besides me even know why I'm so upset and haven't stopped crying. I mean, this isn't something you can just say in a phonecall. Anyways, I'm Katie. Yes, the best friend of Louis Tomlinson and wife of Harry Styles, both from One Direction. I haven't seen them in months, though. They're coming back in a week, and I have hardly done anything. I haven't moved, have hardly eaten, and I can't stop crying. The worst thing is, there is something that I never told any of them. Something gnawing at me, something that is the only reason I still try to stay strong.