Thoughts with BPD

!TW!
This is my mind. I live with bpd wich means a long-term pattern of unstable interpersonal relationships, distorted sense of self, and strong emotional reactions.
I mostly struggle with unstable and chaotic interpersonal relationships, often alternating between extremes of idealization and devaluation, disturbed sense of identity and distorted self-image.
I process my emotions by writing them down to have them in front of my eyes and to be able to reflect and analyze them afterwards.
That's why I'd like to say: I don't necessarily see things the way they are written there. These are spontaneous and superficial trains of thought and no facts or condemnations!