Wanna PLAY or BE MINE ? (JUSTIN's gay fanfic)

this is not a diary or something i just need someone to know how i feel right now !

i feel all alone that no one is with me right now that i would love to commit suicide...
just kidding
i wish someone's with me, beside me so that i feel more safer and more calm...
but it seems that no one wants to be with a freak
haha, yeah i'm such a weirdo to call myself a freak
well, everyone knows i'm such a freak guy
today i don't feel like doin' anything...
just today..
not tommorow not the day after tommorow..
tommorow's another day for me to be a succesful person..
this great..
but not that great because everyone'e reaaly hate me except myself!!!

no no no no
yeah yeah yeah
ohh ohh ohh i would love to have a convo with some other guys normal ones
but i'm just here all alone singing "someone like you"
and eating a peanut butter and a bread..

i wish nothing but the best for you...
and the best for me too...

of our glory days..
couldn't be always you and me..
haha i wish this life isn't fake at all..
i want to be mute, deaf, blind
so that everyone will accept my incompletness..

having a stuff like this makes me cry..

that's all