Can this be The Good Ending?

Loving Natalia was hard, from always getting blamed by Dreykov for her misdeeds to being left behind in the red room by her after all you've ever wanted was to live a life with her, you could never seem to finally get what you've always wanted. You never blamed her for leaving you. You were just happy she managed to make a life for herself...you saw the life she had on tv and toys she had of her after the fight in New York, you were just lucky to have been lucid to know she was doing well.

The aftermath of Natalia leaving made Dreykov furious, he knew about you two and how you kept in touch even after graduation from the program so he made an example out of you in an attempt to make a mind control device. You were the test subject and it changed your mind, made you more reckless, and insatiable like a child. You weren't even losing your performance rate in fact you did better than before. You still weren't Natalia though, Dreykov knew that and made sure you did to. He took away your mind and it was never good enough.

It took 2 years for Natasha and Yelena to even find a trace of you, another just for actually having a lead at where you'll be. An underground parking lot for an assassination on a politician.
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Being with the Avengers was never a part of your plan in life. It's too much work. But how can you deny a call from natasha asking you to come in?
A little witch thinks you will bend to her rules? I'd rather be uncomfortable with natasha then be the little witches equal. But nobody will get in your way of giving her and natasha a good ending after all, whos going to stop you?