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Merely Existing...

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Time 1h 13m

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In this urban fiction novel, we follow an unbalanced and disturbed young Ava Jones, a social media influencer on a path of self-destruction through her perception. Merely existing takes place in the present day. The overall setting is directed to occur in various parts of Georgia. She tells her story through recollections of memories while cultivating a deceptive image of herself to those around her and also the cyberspace community in the present time. Ava utilizes the social media platform, as her next meal ticket; never truly regarding the opinion of those who bestowed her the fame that she embellishes in. Just when Ava begins to establish attachments believing she has found a renewed sense of purpose; her mental health and past start to haunt her causing her world to come crashing down. Whilst Ms.Jones is trying to find her identity in modern-day society it appears she can't control the rabbit hole full of regret and repercussions she finds herself sporadically spiraling down. Is it too late for Ava to truly understand the point of existing, or will she allow her past to dictate her future?All Rights Reserved

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Her Twisted Souls by RyaIvy

Ava Lansing wanted nothing more than to hide. After fleeing her abusive ex with nothing but her two dogs and a single duffle bag, she's fought to start over and build herself a new life. She spends her days working for an animal shelter, greatly preferring the company of dogs to people. Ava keeps her head down, stays quiet, and prays that her ex won't be able to find her again. Until three mysterious men set their sights on her at her shelter's adoption event. Getting tangled into a web of secrets, shadows, and dangerous mafia men is the exact opposite of staying hidden, yet she can't resist them. So when the trio's leader, Lucian, presents her with an offer, Ava dives head first into the viper's den. The offer is simple: in exchange for protection and security, play wife to the most dangerous man in the country. What could possibly go wrong? A dark, slow-burn, why-choose mafia romance, MMMF, ⚔️ included. Please check trigger warnings at the start! Rankings: #1 in Found Family, November 2025 #1 in MMMF, January 2026 Top 10 in Mob Boss, January 2026 #1 in Morally Gray, February 226

In Love With An Outlaw by diorbabygee

"Where the hustle brings the dollar." In a city full of money, sex, and drugs..you will get swallowed whole. In Amir Brooks and Asshir Robinson's perspective, the only shit getting swallowed is their nut. Two young hustlers from the dirty south with a plan to take over the whole country. The streets, and hustling is all they ever knew, but what happens when the women in their life want more from them? Their minds are only on that paper, and how to keep their home-front happy. But what happens when..the streets keeping calling them? Will they slow down and think of the bigger picture? Or, will the streets replace the ones they truly love? Kauner Wright and Milan Johnson have it all. When I say all..I mean from the careers right down to the men. Being young successful Black women comes with mo' problems then you can think of. One of the issues is their obsession with street niggas, and the perks that come with it. What happens when their lives are starting get tested in more ways than one? Kauner and Milan love their men, but we all know the streets don't care who you love. Will the girls fold or stay behind their men? The streets ain't never love nobody, and never cared about the ones in it. Welcome to Traplanta.

𝐒𝐰𝐞𝐞𝐭 𝐈𝐧𝐧𝐨𝐜𝐞𝐧𝐜𝐞 by addicti0nsbl33d

Originally "My girl." NOT EDITED⚠️ "You love hugs Don't you?" "Only yours." - "You know, if you wanted a kiss you could've just asked, princess." he said seductively in my ear, his hand rubbing up and down my waist. - He slowly lifts his gaze to look at me. "You're scared, aren't you." - "Ava, my dick is rock hard and we're going to the fucking pool, it's taking my all to not take you right here in this fucking elevator." He grumbled causing my eyes to trail down to see it. - She was like a ray of sunshine. He was the devil. Join Ava and Kai on a journey of love, redemption, and the power of finding light in the darkest of places. You know what they say... opposites attract;) _______ Read to find out ;) ⚠️P.s... the ending to this book is SAD, read at your own discretion...Enjoy! ⚠️ ©️2023

SLIME ME OUT by Mya2tact

"See, this is exactly why I wish we never met. You came into my life and you just keep shaking everything up!" She stressed, her stomach rumbling with rage. He only stared before his lips twitched into a smirk. "You don't even believe that dumb ass shit." --- She thought running would set her free, but freedom came with a price she wasn't sure she was ready to uphold. She ran from one trap straight into another. Dreams of dancing slip through her fingers when survival forces her into a world she would have to endure. She's dragged into the dark corners of Onyx city and life is nothing as she knew it. Then he appears. A boy who feels different, who makes her believe she might have more to live for than pain. Unfortunately, in the streets nothing is ever as it seems. Every bond comes with secrets, every touch with consequences. And when betrayal cuts deeper than love, she'll learn the hard way what it really means to be slimed out. STARTED; September 18th 2025 PUBLISHED; September 27th 2025 FINISHED; FEBRUARY 7th 2026

FOR TROUBLED KIDS. by Mya2tact

"Do you think we're soul mates?" She asked, lifting her head in order to lock eyes with him. It took him a moment, mustering up his answer. Thinking about how they were so alike, but so different. How they had been through similar things and had the same outlooks on certain perspectives in life. The connection that they shared. It was like she was made specifically for him. No one would ever be able to hold a candle to her and the way she made him feel. She was his person, and he was hers. "To be honest...yeah." He replied, wrapping his arm around her. --- Knucks is a misunderstood teenage girl, deemed as destructive to the society with her reoccurring outbursts and rebellious behavior. Anger fuels her defiant spirit but beneath her exterior, lies a vulnerable girl searching high and low for someone to help her through a time of crisis. Bones quiet and reserved, has nothing but a hard exterior looking from the outside in, when in reality he is just an innocent boy. He's fighting to keep his head above the water also known as life, that is trying its hardest to submerge and break him down mentally. When the two teenagers find themselves in an environment far away from home with others just like them, it leaves both of them separately hopeless about the outcomes of their future lives. One night upon meeting each other, one felt as if they had nothing to live for anymore, while the other felt the same way only holding a different meaning a sense.The night bringing them closer than ever eventually has to come to an end. It's up to the two of them to carry out the strange but alluring connection made with each other, or leave it in the night they met. SLOW BURN; 2 books in 1 STARTED; FEB 19th 2024 PUBLISHED; MARCH 3rd 2024 FINISHED; SEPTEMBER 29th, 2024

The Art Of AK by Mya2tact

"Beautiful things don't ask for attention." In a world that thrives on conformity, August is an anomaly. Raised in a secretive overbearing family, she was chosen to leave its hidden grounds-not for freedom, but for duty. Sent to college to become the strategic mind for her generation behind the family's growing empire, she tries to move through the world like a ghost, draped in gothic shadows with secrets too heavy to share but her style is just too much to go unnoticed by judging eyes unscathed. Then she meets Kason through his older brother. A rising rapper with a reckless charm and a hunger for something real, dealing with battles of his own, he's instantly drawn to August's eerie demeanor and the quiet storm that lingers behind her dark mysterious eyes. She's nothing like the women he's used to-unbothered by trends, and untouched by the need for validation. The more she resists, the deeper he falls, his infatuation turning into an obsession he can't shake. One he cant let go of. As their worlds collide, the slow burn of their connection threatens to ignite everything August has been taught to suppress. With her past closing in and expectations pressing down, she must decide if she's willing to defy everything she's ever known for the chance at something dangerously real. In a society that demands she fit a mold, August stands in defiance. Unfortunately, love has a way of making even the strongest question their silence. STARTED; February 22nd , 2025 PUBLISHED; MARCH 18th, 2025 FINISHED; MAY 27th, 2025

Give into Me (Rich Woman/Poor Man Romance) by EmpressStar

Butterfly gets her heartbroken but finds romance again, with Isaiah who lives on the wrong side of the tracks. --- Twenty-three years old, Butterfly Jones has everything going for herself. She has a good job and a loving fiance. She couldn't ask for anything more. She has the perfect life in her opinion. When she gets betrayed in the worst way, she feels lost and confused. Will she be able to pick up the pieces? She just might, when the handsome Isaiah Williams comes into her life. Twenty-five years old, Isaiah Williams hasn't always had a perfect life. Having to raise his younger sister, when he was in school and having to drop out to take care of her only made matters worse. He's had to struggle while living paycheck to paycheck. Isaiah's determined to get his life on track, and he may just get the needed push when Butterfly invades his life. When Butterfly and Isaiah meet, sparks fly almost instantly. After Butterfly's recent incident, she's become wary of men altogether. When Isaiah comes and turns her world around, she's not so sure she can keep her walls built up like she's planned. When outside forces come between the two of them, they will have to prove that their love is stronger than ever. --- This story has adult content in it. It deals with adult themes. There are sex scenes and cursing. I would advise it to be read by 18+ readers.

WHO ARE YOU MAGNUS? by Ciaffraoi

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Jonesing ✓ by Yairla

"Wanted to be bold." I blush while I avoid eye contact. "Devin needed to borrow clothes for gym." I stare at my bare legs. "I should've told her no." He shrugs, biting into his sub. "Not a fan of exposing the body." I nibble on my burrito. "I just don't want anyone to get the wrong idea." I tuck my hair behind my ear. "That you're easy." My face reddens as I look at him in the corner of my eyes. After a few moments, I nod. He sighs. "The only thing that makes a girl easy is if she lets every and any guy inside." He runs his fingers through his hair. "Clothes or attitude has nothing to do with it." I trace a circle on my thigh. "And a guy that believes otherwise is either a dick or a rapist." I smile. "Avery." "Ava." "Your brain works in wonderful ways." I get more comfortable and lean on his shoulder. "So you've said." I giggle. "I'm glad to share the same name as you." ~ A girl, a perfectionist, named Avery Jones has been in love with her childhood friend's brother for as long as she can remember. He's never noticed her, though, he doesn't really notice anyone. He's sort of an insouciant philanderer. They couldn't be any different, the only thing that connects them is their names. Oh, by the way, his name is also Avery Jones; no relation. As crazy as it might sound, it's true. Anyway, it isn't until she becomes his mentor that he finally sees her. But will this new circumstance spark a connection or show just how different they are?

One and Only by Preese_17

"The sexual tension was so thick in the car you could cut it with a knife...He gripped my waist and hoisted me in the air, my legs were around his waist. I could feel his erection poking me through his pants. We couldn't seem to get enough of each other." Avaa Scott is one of the most sought out psychiatrist in Philadelphia. She's the best at her job, but her personal life is a little jacked up. Her boyfriend has cheated on her for the last time, so that night she and her family decide to go to the club. But Avaa doesn't leave with them. What will happen when she has a one night stand with a mysterious man? Will they meet again? Read to find out This story includes mature content. Read at your own risk.

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Her Twisted Souls

Ava Lansing wanted nothing more than to hide. After fleeing her abusive ex with nothing but her two dogs and a single duffle bag, she's fought to start over and build herself a new life. She spends her days working for an animal shelter, greatly preferring the company of dogs to people. Ava keeps her head down, stays quiet, and prays that her ex won't be able to find her again. Until three mysterious men set their sights on her at her shelter's adoption event. Getting tangled into a web of secrets, shadows, and dangerous mafia men is the exact opposite of staying hidden, yet she can't resist them. So when the trio's leader, Lucian, presents her with an offer, Ava dives head first into the viper's den. The offer is simple: in exchange for protection and security, play wife to the most dangerous man in the country. What could possibly go wrong? A dark, slow-burn, why-choose mafia romance, MMMF, ⚔️ included. Please check trigger warnings at the start! Rankings: #1 in Found Family, November 2025 #1 in MMMF, January 2026 Top 10 in Mob Boss, January 2026 #1 in Morally Gray, February 226