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The Way I Feel

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As kids, Nick and Leo were inseparable. Two halves of a whole. One was never without the other. But life is infinitely cruel. So cruel that it's been nine years since their friendship was cut short, and both of them are still broken inside from the aftermath. They're barely hanging on as it is, and after Nick loses his mom, he struggles to find a reason to go on. But his only remaining reason, his best friend, left him and moved to the other side of the country without so much as a goodbye nine years ago. 

But Leo's changed. Just like Nick, he's grown up without his other half. He's had to live both knowing and feeling the hurt he's caused. The hurt that stemmed from him leaving. But again, life is cruel. And unforeseen circumstances land Leo right back where he started. Right back where he knows his heart truly belongs. But he's afraid. Afraid that Nick has moved on. That he's forgotten about Leo and has mended his shattered heart.

What Leo finds is anything but that. Sure, Nick's heart is shattered. So much so that it seems beyond repair. But Leo still has to try. He has to try to fix it, even if it takes everything he has left to give.All Rights Reserved

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Reap the Earth at Which you Stand [boyxboy] by FKNichols17

Growing up in chaos isn't simple for all. Not many could cope. They would struggle and kick, but ultimately drown. However, for Dakota, that was his normality. Torturing. Maiming. Killing. That was his life, the life of a hunter. The Arizona line was elusive, written fame in the lore of hunters, and infamy for their prey. They were the best. No one could ever compare to their skills, their abilities, their ruthlessness. But Dakota was something else. His siblings might have learnt to enjoy the hunt, well most of them anyway, but Dakota didn't. There was always something missing for him, something he was waiting on. Silent and everlasting hope. A promise had been made to him, the day his twin brother was stolen, taken by the enemy, plucked right from the very home the Arizonas had grown up in. A promise of something better, something that he might actually want in his life. Now, almost sixteen years later, something was coming. A change was begging to be found. Maybe it would be for the best. Maybe Dakota would finally find that certain something that had been missing his whole life, something to fill the dark and fractured abyss that ached and wailed within. But nothing was ever that simple. Because, of course, the promise that had been made to Dakota would never be anything plausible for him, anything tangible to have and to hold. He had been promised a new life, by the greatest enemy of them all. It wouldn't be easy. Not with his family still clinging to his heels, the teachings of blood and violence burnt into his mind. No, leaving them behind wouldn't ever be easy. Then again, staying with them would only bring his inevitable death. Why not take the chance to die happy? After all, out of the ashes, a phoenix will rise...

The Boy That Stole My Heart by igrowlandbite

ITS FINISHED EVERYONE. THANK YOU FOR YOUR SUPPORT. I HOPE THIS STORY MEANS AS MUCH TO YOU AS IT DOES ME. (Please don't let the first chapter stop you from reading this. It's such a good story. Please let me know what you think!!!!! LOVE YOU GUYS!

$Once in a Lifetime {BxB English} by Misiz_Bossy$

Two straight guys. The first, twenty-one years old, committed and loyal to his girlfriend for two years. Sociable, kind, and good-hearted. The second, twenty-three years old. He has dated so many girls he can't even remember their names. He has no real friends. In fact, he's disliked by everyone, given his cold and aggressive demeanor. He's perceived exactly as he presents himself. A dark-haired guy with tattoos and attitude problems. "I know what I did was wrong. It was wrong of me to kiss you... You're free to hate me. You can decide never to see me again. But before you go, please eat..." their eyes locked, until he sighed and looked down. "And if that's what you want... I won't bother you again" he said with his head lowered, when he felt the other's hand caressing his face. He shook his head negatively as he stroked his cheek with his thumb. "I don't want that..." 🖤New Chapter : Every Tuesday🖤 ~ Warning : contains mature content (violence, strong language, sexual content intended for 18+ audiences only) ~

Hearts in the Shadows(m×m) by Pagaleva

Falling in love with your worst enemy is not a simple thing for anyone. ############|||||############## Alex Kensington, heir to a vast medical empire, is the epitome of privilege and allure. With striking good looks, a chiseled physique, and charm that captivates all, he is the heartthrob of the college. He is arrogant, cold, and a womanizer. On the other side of the spectrum was Leo Reyes a brilliant mechanical engineering student, who is the epitome of contradiction. Despite being poor, he excels in academics and possesses a heart of gold beneath a tough exterior. He has a complete bad boy personality, Tattoos adorn his body, a visual testament to his rebellious spirit, his hidden struggles, and the dangerous path he has traders. He is a person who is exhausted of his own life. Their paths cross in a collision of pride and prejudice, igniting a feud that threatens to engulf them both. Each day unfolds a battle of wits and wills, leaving scars deeper than just surface wounds. However, fate is a master weaver, entwining destinies in ways that are hard to fathom. In a world that tries to tear them apart, they must decide if their budding feelings are worth the risk. Will they embrace the love that blossoms amidst the chaos and hatred, or will they let their shadows cast them adrift? Only time will tell if their hearts can transcend the darkness and come together in a blaze of unexpected passion. Note: This story is for 18+ and reading is your risk.

Signs From The Universe (bxb) by dreammcatcher

Alex has been looking for a sign from the universe. A sign to tell him that he needs to keep fighting. To live on for his brother who died in a tragic car accident. When Alex stumbles across a man in town wearing a blindfold, holding a sign that says, 'You are not alone. If you need a talk or a hug. I am here.' He takes it upon himself to approach the stranger. Was this the sign he has been looking for? - River has been a mental health advocate for three years. With his own demons battled, he takes it upon himself to support others. More specifically strangers. He has always found peace in helping those who suffer in silence. When River is approached by a man who expresses his depressive tendencies, he decides to take the broken stranger for coffee, out of fear of what might happen if he lets him go. River tells him to offload, release all the sadness and frustration he has into someone who knows nothing about him. But when he leaves, River can't stop thinking about him. It's not until Alex comes back a few months later to thank him for listening when he needed help the most. Alex has a lot to thank for his signs from the universe.

ORIGINAL:The Boy With A Touch Of Cancer(BxB) by Jeanne_Wolf

"Leo pinned me against the wall with his hips; his hands gently gripping my wrists, keeping my arms above my head against the cool brick behind me. His beautiful, hazy blue eyes -that had turned straight quicksilver, again- were filled with such an intense, carnal desire I couldn't even look into them, so I looked over his shoulder. I saw a small group of kids from the group standing out by their cars who would easily be able to see what we were doing...or at least what Leo was doing to me. At that moment, my mind started wandering to all the things that I could be doing to him right now...but I stopped that train of thought, immediately, as it started heading to all the wrong places... All the dirty places... All of those places involving a very hard part of my body... I glanced back at Leo; his gaze was still as intense as it was before (unfortunately). He smirked at me and said confidently, "You can't ignore me forever, Ethan. You're eventually gonna fall for my charms..." Ethan Carter was focused on 2 things. 1. School (obviously) and 2. Getting over ex (it's proving to be, harder than he thought), but now he has to add dying to that list, and suddenly having feelings for a boy (which has happened once before, but Ethan tries to forget it). Leo Malone makes Ethan feel things he's never felt for another guy. Leo's sweet, patient, and understanding, the only problem is, he's a guy. Ethan tries to ignore the fact that his heart flutters every time he sees Leo, or that he can't ever stop thinking about him; but if having cancer has taught him one thing, it's that, "You have to live in the present, as you may not have a future."

Heartbroken by eelarinn

[COMPLETED] When Eli found his boyfriend having sex with his best friend, he was shattered. Tyler and Tony were the only people other than his family that Eli trusted. But they broke his trust. They broke his heart into thousands of pieces. Eli lost both of them. They were the only people in his life along with his sister and mom. Now he was all alone. Betrayed and hurt. Heartbroken. But when Andrew entered Eli's life, he felt a bit happy. Like he could trust him. Share his thoughts with him. But is Andrew worth Eli's trust? Will Andrew hold Eli's hand? or will he leave him just like Tyler did? 🌿 This is my first ever book. Give it a try. If you like it, then comment and vote. If you find anything wrong with it, feel free to criticize me. Thank you.

Football Boys by NatureProductions

| Novel | Version 1 ~ Published early 2018 ~ Burdened with undeniable romantic feelings for his best friend, Greyson feels as if his life has become a typical tragic story of a one sided attraction. For the most part, he's right as his love story is both emotionally draining and convoluted for a lack of better words. But neither of the friends anticipated that things would quickly escalate after a drunken kiss. ________________________ "My fist stung with a burning pain as I stood over Ace's unconscious body. A bit stunned yet remorseless as a multitude of gawking eyes bore into me, I was numb. And sluggishly turning to meet Greyson's watery eyes, it was as if my mind had turned to a word stealing mush."

The Submissive Assassin (BxB) by bemuah

''After a few seconds of them staring at one another, Dante finally spoke. But his voice had changed; it was breathless and soft, echoing with a sweetness that Nate could have never imagined existed within him. With the knife left on his palm for Nate to grab, he cooed sheepishly, "Can you...tease me...with this?" Nate Kennedy was devastated when his parents announced their moving overseas. As for him, he was forced to move to a new city, get an apartment near his aunt and enroll in a brand new school. It all started going left when he encountered an assassin named Dante Hercules known not only in their city, but across the entire territory. But Nate didn't know he was an assassin when Nate threatened to kill him after Dante had laid a hand on his aunt. Neither did he know that Dante was into submissive sexual pleasure, relished being dominated violently and carelessly. He had been looking for someone for years and years, until now; he found Nate Kennedy. That is the deal; Nate must keep Dante sexually satisfied. If he fails, he dies, without any remorse. But that was what he thought in the beginning; what happens when emotions start to get involved? When one falls in love with the other? When the dangerous lifestyle of Dante puts Nate's life in jeopardy, which he never thought he would care for?

Nightmares by Gee_efh

A home wrecked and sinking down, a father and a brother who acts as if you are not to be counted as a person, bizarre and insanely bad moments of life, you just get all these thrown at you plus a hot guy on your heels then maybe you'd know Joel. A simple boy who wanted nothing but a simple life and family but who knows the future and how life throws you around? *Might contain some disturbing scenes *B×B Read at your own risk. *Still editing, excuse my little mistakes.

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Reap the Earth at Which you Stand [boyxboy]

Growing up in chaos isn't simple for all. Not many could cope. They would struggle and kick, but ultimately drown. However, for Dakota, that was his normality. Torturing. Maiming. Killing. That was his life, the life of a hunter. The Arizona line was elusive, written fame in the lore of hunters, and infamy for their prey. They were the best. No one could ever compare to their skills, their abilities, their ruthlessness. But Dakota was something else. His siblings might have learnt to enjoy the hunt, well most of them anyway, but Dakota didn't. There was always something missing for him, something he was waiting on. Silent and everlasting hope. A promise had been made to him, the day his twin brother was stolen, taken by the enemy, plucked right from the very home the Arizonas had grown up in. A promise of something better, something that he might actually want in his life. Now, almost sixteen years later, something was coming. A change was begging to be found. Maybe it would be for the best. Maybe Dakota would finally find that certain something that had been missing his whole life, something to fill the dark and fractured abyss that ached and wailed within. But nothing was ever that simple. Because, of course, the promise that had been made to Dakota would never be anything plausible for him, anything tangible to have and to hold. He had been promised a new life, by the greatest enemy of them all. It wouldn't be easy. Not with his family still clinging to his heels, the teachings of blood and violence burnt into his mind. No, leaving them behind wouldn't ever be easy. Then again, staying with them would only bring his inevitable death. Why not take the chance to die happy? After all, out of the ashes, a phoenix will rise...