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The Way I Feel

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As kids, Nick and Leo were inseparable. Two halves of a whole. One was never without the other. But life is infinitely cruel. So cruel that it's been nine years since their friendship was cut short, and both of them are still broken inside from the aftermath. They're barely hanging on as it is, and after Nick loses his mom, he struggles to find a reason to go on. But his only remaining reason, his best friend, left him and moved to the other side of the country without so much as a goodbye nine years ago. 

But Leo's changed. Just like Nick, he's grown up without his other half. He's had to live both knowing and feeling the hurt he's caused. The hurt that stemmed from him leaving. But again, life is cruel. And unforeseen circumstances land Leo right back where he started. Right back where he knows his heart truly belongs. But he's afraid. Afraid that Nick has moved on. That he's forgotten about Leo and has mended his shattered heart.

What Leo finds is anything but that. Sure, Nick's heart is shattered. So much so that it seems beyond repair. But Leo still has to try. He has to try to fix it, even if it takes everything he has left to give.All Rights Reserved

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So Where Does that Put Us (boy x boy) by LifeDeep

"When something terrible happens to someone, everyone feels sorry for you at first, they take your hand and cry fake tears and say how 'special' you are, how strong you are. But after a while they forget...Then they don't see a person anymore they just see this terrible thing and think you're terrible because of it...It's like a little switch that goes off in people's heads: one minute everyone is your friend and they care oh-so much, then, when things die down, they become terrified of you. You'd be surprised to see what fear can make someone do." Justin Ivanov has never led much of a normal life, but when his sister passes away, his entire world falls apart. Trapped in an abusive relationship and in a school where everyone is scared of him, Justin continues to deteriorate, pinning all his hope on his confused best friend, Ben Fulton. He struggles to keep his family together without them finding out the hidden secret of his sexuality. But the more he fails, the closer he gets to losing himself forever. Ben Fulton doesn't understand what depression is. He doesn't understand why people have it or how to fix it. But when the sudden death of his best friend's sister leaves him feeling empty, he comes too close to comfort with just what depression can make someone do. Trying to sort out his own emotions, sexuality, and future out, Ben also has to balance trying to save Justin. But the more he tries, the more his feelings grow for his best friend, and the closer Justin gets to destroying himself.

Not All Who Wander Are Lost by Tea_Elliot

"Goodbye, Sam Thomas Foster," "Goodbye, Michael October Valley," ------ When Michael came out, life as he knew it ended. Everything fell apart and he lost his best friend. Now, four years later, his former best friend, Sam Foster, is suddenly reappearing in Michael's life. A school camp to solve the rivalry between two school's football teams pushes the former friends closer together and it isn't long before old feelings start to ignite once more. There's only one problem. The past. Will Michael be able to forgive Sam for what happened after he came out, or will the two continue to wander away from each other, lost forever.

The Submissive Assassin (BxB) by bemuah

''After a few seconds of them staring at one another, Dante finally spoke. But his voice had changed; it was breathless and soft, echoing with a sweetness that Nate could have never imagined existed within him. With the knife left on his palm for Nate to grab, he cooed sheepishly, "Can you...tease me...with this?" Nate Kennedy was devastated when his parents announced their moving overseas. As for him, he was forced to move to a new city, get an apartment near his aunt and enroll in a brand new school. It all started going left when he encountered an assassin named Dante Hercules known not only in their city, but across the entire territory. But Nate didn't know he was an assassin when Nate threatened to kill him after Dante had laid a hand on his aunt. Neither did he know that Dante was into submissive sexual pleasure, relished being dominated violently and carelessly. He had been looking for someone for years and years, until now; he found Nate Kennedy. That is the deal; Nate must keep Dante sexually satisfied. If he fails, he dies, without any remorse. But that was what he thought in the beginning; what happens when emotions start to get involved? When one falls in love with the other? When the dangerous lifestyle of Dante puts Nate's life in jeopardy, which he never thought he would care for?

The Brightest Star by kodycolors

Everyone was charmed by Leo's bright smile but behind it all, he could barely keep it together inside. From taking care of his sick mother to suffering mental and physical abuse from his father to keeping up his perfect grades in school. King was the new kid who had just moved in with his uncle, a shut-in drug boss. He just wanted to finish school in peace. He did not want to make friends and deal with their drama or problems. But when he meets Leo everything changes, and Leo soon finds all his walls being torn down around King. But what happens when someone from Leo's dark past comes back to haunt him? How much more will Leo be able to take before falling off the deep end? And what will happen when King finds himself in the middle of a drug war? Will he be able to protect Leo and his family? Good things don't always happen to good people. Sometimes it's the ones who shine the brightest, who are suffering the most inside. ****** NSFW chapters are censored. Get the full uncensored version on my Patreon page! Link in my Linktree in my profile bio! You have been warned about the censoring, any hate speech in comments about it will result in blocking. Warning! This story contains drug use, physical and mental abuse, tragedy, blood, violence, death, sexual assault, bullying, sickness, and self-harm.

$The Way I Love You {bxb} by Sayless_lena$

"Jake," Seth called out. Nothing. Seth groaned and then walked up behind him and once he got to him he saw that Jake had both his earbuds in. He chuckled and then walked around the couch. Once he stood in front of Jake, he looked up and finally got his attention. Jake smiled while slowly taking out his earbuds. "Yes," Jake spoke softly. "You've been doing work since lunch," Seth spoke. Jake sighed, looking down at all his notes scattered across the coffee table. He looked back up at Seth. "Sorry," he whispered. The two chuckled as Seth stepped closer to Jake. "Maybe," he spoke slowly as he got a hold of the notebook on Jake's lap. "It's time to take a break." Jake smirked as he watched Seth place the notebook on top of the clustered coffee table. Once their eyes met again a smile slowly grew on Seth's face. #2 (Reasons To Love You) The Way I Love You is another bxb story. It's now senior year- the last year of high school and Jake and his friends all want to make this a year to remember. But when a new student arrives at their school, causing trouble between the friendships and relationships this will definitely be a year to remember. The story contains a guideline for mature audiences only. Unlike the first book, this one is more on the mature side. Just seniors in high school doing what they want. Read at your own risk.

Lunar Eclipse by NRMedina

"Growing up in a pack house full of rabid wolves was hard. Not being able to shift in a pack house full of rabid wolves was even harder. They would abuse, harass, and touch me. I stayed strong but I couldn't keep it up any longer. I just wanted it all to be over. That is until I was saved by him." "I've lived on this earth for over four centuries, by my self. I didn't have anyone to love me the same way I loved them. I wanted to give up. I was losing hope that I'd never find someone to call mine. And then I found him." ~~~ A cliché love story between a wolf and a vampire. They get close quickly but have their ups and downs. Can they fight off whatever evil comes their way? Or will they need to sacrifice their lives? *WARNING:BOYXBOY* *07/30/2020-09/08/2020* --Highest Rankings--- #28 in fantasyfiction #64 in teendrama #121 in boyxboy

$Once in a Lifetime {BxB English} by Misiz_Bossy$

Two straight guys. The first, twenty-one years old, committed and loyal to his girlfriend for two years. Sociable, kind, and good-hearted. The second, twenty-three years old. He has dated so many girls he can't even remember their names. He has no real friends. In fact, he's disliked by everyone, given his cold and aggressive demeanor. He's perceived exactly as he presents himself. A dark-haired guy with tattoos and attitude problems. "I know what I did was wrong. It was wrong of me to kiss you... You're free to hate me. You can decide never to see me again. But before you go, please eat..." their eyes locked, until he sighed and looked down. "And if that's what you want... I won't bother you again" he said with his head lowered, when he felt the other's hand caressing his face. He shook his head negatively as he stroked his cheek with his thumb. "I don't want that..." 🖤New Chapter : Every Tuesday & Friday🖤 ~ Warning : contains mature content (violence, strong language, sexual content intended for 18+ audiences only) ~ #9 lgtblove / 17,1k. stories

Signs From The Universe (bxb) by dreammcatcher

Alex has been looking for a sign from the universe. A sign to tell him that he needs to keep fighting. To live on for his brother who died in a tragic car accident. When Alex stumbles across a man in town wearing a blindfold, holding a sign that says, 'You are not alone. If you need a talk or a hug. I am here.' He takes it upon himself to approach the stranger. Was this the sign he has been looking for? - River has been a mental health advocate for three years. With his own demons battled, he takes it upon himself to support others. More specifically strangers. He has always found peace in helping those who suffer in silence. When River is approached by a man who expresses his depressive tendencies, he decides to take the broken stranger for coffee, out of fear of what might happen if he lets him go. River tells him to offload, release all the sadness and frustration he has into someone who knows nothing about him. But when he leaves, River can't stop thinking about him. It's not until Alex comes back a few months later to thank him for listening when he needed help the most. Alex has a lot to thank for his signs from the universe.

The Accidental Love by amanjotkaur406

A love story started with an accident. He loved him but didn't know how to tell him. He writes it down in his diary but didn't get the chance to give it to him. ************ It's been 2 years, and he is still in a coma. He still doesn't know how I feel. Every day I just thought if I will ever be able to tell him that how much I regret teasing him. How much I regret that I'm not the one laying here but him. ************** Hello everyone. It's a "boys love" story. If you are not comfortable with it then please don't read. I have done my duty and gave you an alert. Now if you don't want to read it, it's your loss. This story is full of fun and only fun. It will be an awesome but sweet love story. For further stirring occasionally stay tuned. love you all.

He Made Me Feel (Boyxboy) by KassandraVivu

*Dedicated to all the Victims in the Orlando Pulse Shooting, Your souls will always be beautiful* Ben is yours typical lonely guy. Lives alone, No friends and no family. He works as a reporter for the most largest firm in the city. Dealing with celebrities and athletes. Getting a new project to work on and having the chance to interview an athlete. Not just an athlete but Jesse Hutcherman his self. Ben doesn't think that anything will come out of it, but oh boy is he wrong. Jesse Hutcherman a football player for the Packers has been seen as a womanizer by the public, but that's not who he really is. feeling like he has no chance to prove the public wrong. He makes a new friend. Which had everyone in the public, all his fans and co-workers wondering what the heck is going on. But Jesse soon realize that his new friend is different from most people, he doesnt want anyone in. He doesn't wanna have feelings. SO Jesse started up a goal that he wanted to reach, His main goal he likes to call it. Jesse wants to make Ben feel, he wants Ben to have feelings, but not just regular feelings, but feelings for him and he wants Ben to let him in. But the problem is, will Ben come out of his shell and give Jesse that chance?

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So Where Does that Put Us (boy x boy)

"When something terrible happens to someone, everyone feels sorry for you at first, they take your hand and cry fake tears and say how 'special' you are, how strong you are. But after a while they forget...Then they don't see a person anymore they just see this terrible thing and think you're terrible because of it...It's like a little switch that goes off in people's heads: one minute everyone is your friend and they care oh-so much, then, when things die down, they become terrified of you. You'd be surprised to see what fear can make someone do." Justin Ivanov has never led much of a normal life, but when his sister passes away, his entire world falls apart. Trapped in an abusive relationship and in a school where everyone is scared of him, Justin continues to deteriorate, pinning all his hope on his confused best friend, Ben Fulton. He struggles to keep his family together without them finding out the hidden secret of his sexuality. But the more he fails, the closer he gets to losing himself forever. Ben Fulton doesn't understand what depression is. He doesn't understand why people have it or how to fix it. But when the sudden death of his best friend's sister leaves him feeling empty, he comes too close to comfort with just what depression can make someone do. Trying to sort out his own emotions, sexuality, and future out, Ben also has to balance trying to save Justin. But the more he tries, the more his feelings grow for his best friend, and the closer Justin gets to destroying himself.