The Way I Feel
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As kids, Nick and Leo were inseparable. Two halves of a whole. One was never without the other. But life is infinitely cruel. So cruel that it's been nine years since their friendship was cut short, and both of them are still broken inside from the aftermath. They're barely hanging on as it is, and after Nick loses his mom, he struggles to find a reason to go on. But his only remaining reason, his best friend, left him and moved to the other side of the country without so much as a goodbye nine years ago.
But Leo's changed. Just like Nick, he's grown up without his other half. He's had to live both knowing and feeling the hurt he's caused. The hurt that stemmed from him leaving. But again, life is cruel. And unforeseen circumstances land Leo right back where he started. Right back where he knows his heart truly belongs. But he's afraid. Afraid that Nick has moved on. That he's forgotten about Leo and has mended his shattered heart.
What Leo finds is anything but that. Sure, Nick's heart is shattered. So much so that it seems beyond repair. But Leo still has to try. He has to try to fix it, even if it takes everything he has left to give.
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