Him <3

𝐀 𝐜𝐨𝐥𝐥𝐞𝐜𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧 𝐨𝐟 𝐩𝐨𝐞𝐦𝐬 𝐝𝐞𝐝𝐢𝐜𝐚𝐭𝐞𝐝 𝐭𝐨 𝐡𝐢𝐦.

I like him alot but slowly I'm losing feelings for him and I don't know how to tell him. I don't wanna stop loving him so I find an excuse to talk to him but he doesn't want the same. He loves me right? Even though he doesn't wanna communicate? I've to convince myself I don't want him even though I do? Playing and replaying old conversations. Overthinking every word I've said and I hate it 'cause it's not me.
Very fond of the feeling of being left out to leaving someone out. How draining is it to be loved or cared about? When all the eyes are on you. You feel heavy as you lie down. Words are stuck in the throat like a drought, where talking about how I feel feels foul. One good thing they did for you, how many more times will you let that be the excuse for letting them just be there without being there.