What it takes to be alive.
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Last published Mon, May 23, 2022
Growing up and realising that life isn't all black and isn't all white. I wouldn't say it's a heartbreaking book, but it's realistic, it's raw, real and right from my heart. It's for whoever feels alone, too much, lost and scared. It's for you, to realise you're not alone, because across the world someone wrote a book that you relate to, but have they made it out alive? That's a mystery for you to find out.
author note: A major trigger warning, because Sh is mentioned, SA is mentioned, relapsing and much more, so if you get triggered easily, this isn't for you.
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