My Father's Absence

Makes me wonder if I'm good enough
Wonder why was it so easy for you to give up
Causing my mind to run crazy and wild
Like how can you even abandon your child
Just really want some real answers
Cause this feeling is worse than cancer
I wonder if you think of my well-being
Or even think if I'm worth seeing
I'm hopeful that I get to see your face
Just so I can say what I gotta say
You are a coward and that's no lie
Causing me to sit in my room and have a silent cry
Waiting for the moment to have me a child
Just so I can do what you didn't do and go the extra mile
You played yourself in so many ways
Not knowing your son will be great one day
I'm learning and learning that's the plan
To be something you are not and that's is to be a better man