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2005, where it all began

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I'm not one to complain about much, you see I've gone through a lot in my life.. But not as much as id hope.. See I'm only nine years old right now.. I still have so much to learn and go through.. Mom's always saying i cant give up yet.. My life hasn't even started yet!

My mom has always been the problem.. Shes just as bad as my best friend ana.. Always snarking and laughing at me.. 

"Wow Kat, you're going in for more?"

"Just because your skinny doesnt mean you wont get fat"

"Don't think you'll always be this beautiful... Life will catch up to you Kat"

Don't worry mommy... I hear you.. I'm fat.. Your nine year old daughter hears you! I wont eat mom i promise.. I'll be good. Ana is helping me momma, she cares about me too..

I didn't realize you could be "too skinny" Ana was my only friend.. No one wanted to talk to the fat girl.. 

Thank you momma for making death come sooner for me.. I love you for that.All Rights Reserved

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Ana by Wintersdancer

Life as a child was amazing. Your weight didn't matter. Your clothes didn't matter. Your parents money didn't matter. All that mattered was who you were going to play with, but that's all gone now. My sister hates me, my mom has no time for me, and my dad, well he left me. My life has been one whirlwind after another. Except I'm content with it, till it all comes crashing down. Every television, billboard, and magazine is covered with models. Models that are supposed to be role models, for us. Perfect face, perfect body, perfect life. I have none of those things. All my life I've never cared that I was over weight, and didn't wear makeup. Who knew a boy could change all of that? That's when I decided to starve myself, force myself to look like the girls in the magazines. Who knew all I was doing was slowly killing myself? Life likes to play games, except my game is called Ana and I don't think I will survive. (unedited) Cover by: MadHatter_25

Trusting My Brothers by ajbear12

Liliana has always had a bad life. Ever since she was five, her mother would date the wrong people who would corrupt her, and she was the one who always got hurt. The abuse was usually mental, but then Liliana turned ten, and that's when it became physical. Four years later, she finds out that her mom died in a car accident and has to go live with her older brothers who she has no memory of. Will her brothers welcome's her with open arms? Will she learn to let them in? Will they find out the truth of her childhood? TRIGGER WARNING: includes abuse and mental health like anxiety, depression, and self harm

Ana taught me (N.H.au ) by Niallers_Rainbow

Today I met her , her name is Ana. She's pretty thin and beautiful. I'm friends with this girl Ana. I've start eating less, hating the person in the mirror my life become a mess. I'm scared of this girl Ana. I can't get her out of my head, it finally occured me that Ana wants me death My worst enemey is this girl called Ana. She's a demon in my head, She seemed sweet at first But I was so mislead. This is about Ana, She starve to grave , if you ever meet her you should be afraid. Ana shows no mercy. She'll take your life away, If you give any chance in your head She'll stay... ~*~ N.H. au maybe there's a bit of Niam but to find that out you better read it ;)

Dear Ana, by IAMpandax

"I fell into darkness but I didn't mind, I liked it." Amy Adams thought everything was alright, but when she heard her very best friend Rose committed suicide, her world turned upside down. Amy couldn't understand, why? But Amy found Rose's diary at her wake and everything became clear. Rose was anorexic. Rose wrote about her two guardians Ana and Mia, they helped her, or something. Amy didn't understand a thing, but not for long. Because Amy would also meet her fate with the two angels of death. Just like Rose. Amy has a hard time fitting in after her only connection to a social life left her alone. Amy get's lost and tries to save herself. But how can you pull yourself out of a hole where you can't see the edge? Amy does make new friends and she even falls in love but everything is on the verge of falling apart. How does she plan on keeping her 'new habit' a secret? and when will Amy really understand?

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"Are you ok?" "What's wrong?" "Are you sad?" "Everything will be okay". Honestly, I'm not okay, what's wrong? Everything! And why am I sad? Because I can't handle anything anymore and NOTHING will be okay. I don't know why I always need to lie to everyone about me, it's not like they could understand anyways. Who's been by my side? Well people obviously, but none of them can know what I think! How I feel! How could they anyways, it's not like my life is a book that people can just read and understand... Who am I? An emotional girl who is exaggerating right now? Haha! NO. I'm actually Anne, and I'm fourteen. I guess that I'm a social teen, always looking happy and approchable. Well not lately...But you'll get to that part at some point. I'm an "average teen" like some people say. Well I honestly don't know. I'm always tired, depressed stressed, but some say that that's normal. Of course because my life isn't complicated at all...Maybe I imagine things? All these years and I've always kept things inside, of course I have friends, but they can't hear my thoughts and know everything in my pathetic life. So that's why I've decided "Well why not write in a diary? Maybe it will help? Or something" I have no idea if it actually helps, but it might...At least it's something I can open up to. To talk about my suicidal thoughts, my depression, my self-harm issues and my eating disorder... On that note.... Bye.... Fml :) Anne

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All you need is love by katieloveisall

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Ana

Life as a child was amazing. Your weight didn't matter. Your clothes didn't matter. Your parents money didn't matter. All that mattered was who you were going to play with, but that's all gone now. My sister hates me, my mom has no time for me, and my dad, well he left me. My life has been one whirlwind after another. Except I'm content with it, till it all comes crashing down. Every television, billboard, and magazine is covered with models. Models that are supposed to be role models, for us. Perfect face, perfect body, perfect life. I have none of those things. All my life I've never cared that I was over weight, and didn't wear makeup. Who knew a boy could change all of that? That's when I decided to starve myself, force myself to look like the girls in the magazines. Who knew all I was doing was slowly killing myself? Life likes to play games, except my game is called Ana and I don't think I will survive. (unedited) Cover by: MadHatter_25