it's not what it seams

I sometimes think to myself, what if I never really tried? could I have prevented all of this from happening. but then again there was no escaping him, he is just way to powerful.

when I tell my story to people they don't really understand. how I could of been so stupid to not see it? how I couldn't of felt it in his presence? now looking back I can see it. how much he played me. but overall the main question is why didn't I stop it sooner? maybe it was because I actually did love him.

then I meet harry, yes THE harry styles. he was totally different from what I expected. but he was amazing. I fell harder than I ever did for austin. but how could I tell austin? wouldn't that just make the bruises bigger, the scars wider and the nights longer? I thought so.

what will happen when harry finds out about everything? about what Austin does to me? everything will change. either for the better or for the worse.
...... Britt.