rigor samsa: n. a kind of psychological exoskeleton that can protect you from pain and contain your anxieties, but always ends up cracking under pressure or hollowed out by time-and will keep growing back again and again, until you develop a more sophisticated emotional structure, held up by a strong and flexible spine, built less like a fortress than a cluster of treehouses. ★ ★ ★ this book is a collection describing what goes on inside my head; a collection of thoughts whenever my psychogical exoskeleton has been broken down and turned into dust. so expect random sporadic updates. from long thought out chapters, to short, few sentenced writings, this is a book containing everything i have no place for anywhere else. - - - reuploaded in 2023.