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When I Was, Now I Am

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Time 6h 30m

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The life of a child is something precious, but it becomes something more when you share it with another. Thea Luxley gains that privilege upon meeting Raven, another girl her age after moving to a new house in a new city. This is the story of their journey through life, and it all starts at the age of six.

From the moment they meet, a special bond is formed, and both girls become inseparable despite their struggles. From grappling with financial instability to facing the church and its people, Raven and Thea are a force to be reckoned with. 

Watch them grow from young first graders into adults where they slowly understand what it means to love, not only each other, but themselves despite everything the world tells them to be. 

*** Discussions of Religious Trauma and Adult Themes***All Rights Reserved

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