sooo um... RusAme? - Fighting

Description of story is at the bottom along with warnings.

Okay so I was looking through my old stories that I wrote during school in 7th grade, and I came across this little RusAme excerpt...
I want to kill myself after reading it but I think I'll clean it up because HO-LY sHiT-

to whom it may concern:

alright. so i know that these stories are old, but i've been reading some of them and i was disappointed that the ones i loved were either discontinued or gone for some other reason. so i decided that i am going to put all of my favorite aspects of this ship and make my own story.
I AM NOT DEAD.
I AM ACTIVE AS OF TODAY.
DATE STARTED: May 16, 2022
DAY FINISHED:
I WILL NOT GIVE UP ON THIS STORY.
I AM STILL ACTIVE AND WRITING.

America was a senior in high school, his long term rival being Russia. They never got along, but they wouldn't go and pick fights with each other just for the fun of it. In fact, America tried at all costs to avoid getting beaten up. He got enough of that from his father. That is until one day when his little brother, Australia, came to him for help with a bully.
As it turns out, this bully was a little more dangerous than America came to think. He falls into a problem he doesn't think he can escape and with no one to tell or turn to, he doesn't think he ever will.
When his parents don't come home and his situation goes from bad to worse, America may have to turn to the one he's sure he hates.
Will he find the courage to ask for help, or will he decide life's not worth it and let go?

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|-!WARNING!-|
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This book contains the following:
Self harm
Suicidal thoughts
Suicide attempts
Death
Rape

Anymore triggers I think of will be added later.