Diary of an angry widow
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Why me? Why my husband? What did I do wrong? Get ready for a up, close and personal look at widowhood. A real raw experience of widowhood after 19 years of marital bliss. Grab a box of tissue, a notepad for thoughts, and share with a friend as I candidly share my new normal widowhood. What happens when your faith is tested?
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