My True Thoughts.
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Last published Wed, Feb 15, 2017
This is me. My place to vent, to tell people screw you this is my story. Every word is true my pain the pain of others whats saved me and even what claws at my mind at night. My beliefs on religion are pretty messed up to say the least. So is my view on family but hey when you've been through as much shit as I have you begin to realize not everything you've been force fed is true. Probably don't want to get me started on love either hell any of these topics really. No I'm not bashing anyone's view on any of these topics because to each their own. That being said don't bash my views either and definitely don't try to convert me either.
Maybe you have similar problems or views like I do if you do I'd definitely be open to hear it. And hey even if you don't but just want a different view point tell me about it I'm all ears. But seriously no bashing.
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This isn't going to be a story. But just a safe place for all of us to share our problems 💘✨ As I begin posting you all will understand what this is going to be about 😌🐤 But I just wanted to say, anything that's been bothering you, drop it in my messages or in the comments (of any post) 💗😪 and I'll read them and make sure, I help you out as much as I can 🌷🌱 And then your problem will be created into a part of this series (Identities won't be revealed unless you want it to, ofcourse) 🐾🐥 I am just doing this because I know we all face tough times out there 🌊🐳 and I myself am no professional. But I always have loved talking. lol. So, why not put it to a good use and also I really don't give terrible solutions so, I figured this would be the best 💕 and also, guys I know a lot of us are afraid of being vulnerable but it is the most beautiful part of being human 🌈💨 A human has emotions, and they're intelligent enough to speak them ⏳👀 They're surrounded by people like their own and as dark as the world might be, humanity, love, empathy, compassion all of these positive things will never seize to exist 💜✨ So, as we go on adding stories to this series I hope it'll help you all out and it will heal us all in some way or the other 💘🕊 Thank you and right now, I won't be posting anything. So, if you have anything you'd like to share drop it in my inbox and I'll read it as soon as I'm free. - loads of love, xoxo - lifieee.
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