Destroyed
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Complete Sun, Apr 26, 201545m
Since I deleted my other story I'm just going to make a new one. This consists of real journal entries of my own. This will get depressing but I'm just writing down things I feel that day, and what I experienced. This will be very depressing and have some self harm scenes which will be welcomed by bold lettering if you are sensitive to it. Happy reading (sarcastically of course)
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