Was it even worth it?
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This will be the story of a young girl that decided to kill herself. She jumps of a bridge and, has flashbacks of her whole life in a rush, both good and bad memories come up. When she opens her eyes and feels herself drowning she regrets her decisionand wonders : was it even worth it?
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This book will be in English, and it's the first one I write so if you see any mistake feel free to tell me :)
It is inspired by « they both die at the end », Adam silvera
The chapters will be short, some very detailed while some are a little basic (here to make the comprehension easier)
⚠️TRIGGER WARNING⚠️
(Talks about suicide, depression, self harming)
I will be publishing chapters whenever I can :)
See you at the end 🐥
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