This is my diary, it includes things I have written since I was 12 years old. I will mark each chapter with what I think my age was at the time, so you might forgive how horribly cringey it is. In this chronological book filled with my thoughts if you can push past the absolutely agonizing second hand embarrassment, you will be able to see me grow into a real person. You will experience me realizing my sexuality, and morals. You will see me struggle with and learn to live with both autism, and several social emotional disorders. You will see my reactions to abuse in my family, and the comparison between a safe stable environment, and an unstable toxic one. If you decide to give this a chance I wish you the best of luck pushing through the spelling and grammar of a twelve year old. Have fun, or don't I guess.