Why?
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When someone asks "Why do you cut yourself?" I don't know what to say. I know why I do it, but I don't want to scare you away. I realize you care, I realize its wrong, but I fear if I tell you we won't get along. I don't want your pity, I feel it's unfair, but what I do want is to know someone is there. Someone to love, someone to care, someone to show me that there is more there. More than the hurt, more than the pain, more than cutting open my veins. "Life is worth living." They tell me sometimes but if that is true then why don't I? Why don't I live? I just exist. If I was put here for a reason, should I really feel like this?"
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