What Made Me Hate Life

It was Friday afternoon, never thought it would happen but what I'm about to tell you is crazy. I was texting him after school and he was really trying to act like he liked me. It was everything he could think of cutie, beautiful, sweetie, etc... I really was falling for him and so we went to hang out, as we hung out I saw a new side to him. I've known him since sixth grade,I was immature and not thinking so I told him I would come over. I thought there would be friends but as soon I got there he said they texted and they couldn't make it. So I was going to leave but he said we could still hang out and without thinking what so ever I said yes. we say there and watched TV for a few minutes, then he turned it off and asked me "what would you do if I pulled my dick out?". I honestly didn't know what to say so I just said I would probably freak out not knowing he had done it. He pulled my pants down, pushed me down and raped me right there on the floor. I lost my virginity at 13 sadly.