Shower off my bad times.

Follow the daily disaster that is Ira. Not a women neither a male. Some kind of disaster in between. Doesn't mind which pronouns people call her while they are well-meaning. She doesn't care at all about love, too much wasted time in the wrong ones, yet not a fully satisfactory end with the only one good one either.
Anxious, impatient, restless and fighter by nature. Insomniac as fuck. Mas lista que el hambre (Spaniard saying).

Can you picture her in a relationship again?.

You call her dude if you want, unless is derogative, is ok. This person feels like a women, male, nothing, both or all at the same time. Non-binary or Genderfluid explains this very well. She is too used to being called a woman after so many years even though they doesn't feel that way most of the time.

So love or brain?. Which one would win?.

You cannot tame a free spirit. That never goes well.