Compassionate Love!!

I am an ugly,pathetic, nerd but super intelligent girl...I always feel that I am incomplete...because I don't have any friend and I am living with my foster mother who always blame me in every trouble that she encounter which I work at her as a slave ....she never care for me but she is my only family who I grew up with...so I love her..Actually I had a complication on my heart....Well,the only question that comes to my mind before the last day of my life is someone love me or will someones gonna love me???Am I going to be happy for the rest of my life???And is the word forever True if it comes to love??