Cracked, Not Broken
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Dealing with the conditioning of never being enough, she goes through the motions of healing. But the events leading up to that are what's important. Not because they define her, but because remembering where she came from helps her see how far she has come.
She will have a name later, because right now it's about how she feels. Please understand that this story will be written as things happen. This is based on a true story, and that story, like this one, is still being written. There will be mentions of mental, emotional, and physical abuse. I will make sure that there are trigger warnings at the beginning of each chapter. There will be a hint if sexual abuse, but the details will be left out because I don't want to get this book removed and I definitely don't want to trigger someone at all. Narcissistic abuse is there, and I really want the reader to focus on the impact of the right people, as well as the healing. Buckle up babes, the emotions are gonna roll. Grab some tissue, remember to breathe, and if you need to take a break please do so. Much love!
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