52 parts Complete MatureShock.
Once the shock wore off, I was confused.
Then angry.
You made me so angry because I felt betrayed by your choice. Your choice to leave me, leave me all alone in this dark world.
I felt so angry and betrayed by your choice to desert me when you were all I had. Then I accepted the fact that you were no longer here because that's just how it was and how it had to be.
I had to learn to accept the fact that life was now me without you and that was a damn hard pill to swallow.