This is my story of abuse, neglect, bullying, and the effect it had on me. That effect was mental illness, an eating disorder, and BPD.
Eating disorders and self harm have been an addiction for me since i was around 12 or 13. I went through a few really bad things in my life and this is my story.
*All names, including my own have been changed.
**Edana is my pseudonym for everything related to me on the internet. As Edana is the name I give to the little voice in my head, the one who tells me not to eat, the one who tells me I'm worthless and ugly. She wants perfection, she wants me to be perfect.
Rita becomes strict with her eating, everyday the number of calories she eats gets lower and the amount of time she does cardio gets higher. She practices of managing her starvation by distracting it and never catches a break on the scale. Nobody is aware of it, it was something Rita doesn't want her friends or family to know, hiding her body from them didn't last long. Her mother noticed the dramatic weight change on her body. She tries to help her get back to her eating and tells her many times that she's "perfectly skinny" but nothing works. Her mother puts her foot down as Rita started to get ill, her mom takes her to a mental health hospital. She deals with consequences from her nurses and other patients.