The Wrecked Garden

It takes only a few seconds to fall in love with someone, but the real task is staying in love. Someone said that one cannot control when to fall in love or with whom, but they have the choice to stay or leave.
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This one's a collection of poems written from the core of my heart with all the broken pieces. My heartbreak nearly destroyed me and made me feel worthless. The fact that I spend my 5 years loving someone who didn't deserve me from the very beginning made me realise that I never loved myself. I ignored all the red flags and stayed in the relationship to save it even when I was hurt a million times. I was vulnerable, blindly in love, whenever he came back crying promising to change, I believed. I believed and gave him uncountable second chances. But didn't he realise I was falling out of love with all the heartbreaks he gave me? Didn't he realise I was also a human, who needed to breathe? Didn't he know I loved him more than anything?
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I loved him once upon a time. Now he is a faded memory who still haunts me with phone calls repenting of things he did to me. I have seen this a million times, is it cruel to shut my eyes on him now? 'cause this time I choose me and my happiness. It took me some time to realise he was in love with the idea of love, while I was in love with him. I will never let anybody break my heart again.
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The story will be narrated in the form of poetry which will contain pain, lament, grief, acceptance letting go and moving on. The poem is a monologue or a journal of all kinds of thoughts that pass through the mind of someone who is loved the most in the relationship. It is not just an isolated story. This one's the same old story of all broken hearts.