Imani is a very busy girl. She is always dealing with and stressing about some kind of issue in her life 24/7. The constant colorism, texturism, misogynoir, and religious mockery she got from people at her school; having to maintain high grades, healthy friendships, and her job; having to take care of the house by herself many days due to her parents' long work hours and so many more worries for her. As if all her 99 personal, emotional, mental, spiritual, and physical problems aren't enough, they are soon to become 100 problems after she begins to catch feelings for her athletic, smart, kind, highly-wanted friend, Beau.
DISCLAIMER: I do not own any of the songs used in this book that are "written" by the characters.
Ella is falling apart trying to live a "perfect" high school life. Then she meets Ren, who can see past her scars. Suddenly perfection isn't her only option.
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Ella Volkov is a gifted music student, but she's depressed and starting to crack under the pressure of high school. Her overbearing father won't even let her choose what instrument she plays. Then she finds herself alone at a party with Ren, her best friend's crush. She'd always thought he was rude, but after that night he's all Ella can think about. Now she's trapped. If Ella dates Ren, it will ruin her friendship with Jenny. But if she stays true to Jenny, she's losing the one person who can see past her scars. It's up to Ella to decide if she will forge her own path, or stay in the "perfect" box designed for her...
Content and/or Trigger Warning: depression, anxiety, self-harm, violence, sexual assault.
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