I understand the thoughts of suicide that do reside but when I sit and think about my family I feel new inside, I promise I would cause a thousand deaths before I cause them any pain but somehow I end up killing everything. I cry for you I would die for you to escape the pain I feel from all I've been through I feel it in my soul in my flesh take away this ugly thron inside my flesh. Give me death But grace is sufficient to start my mission, Am so far from perfect can't believe they listen but hear a broken man tell you healings happen or liar tells you truth to bring you gladness. I would never boast on my accomplishment I can only hope in God whit confidence.