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When he first saw her it wasn't like what happens in the movies. There were no sparks, no interest, no love, only disgust. She was ratted hair, messy clothes, and a puddle of tears. In his eyes, she was weak.
When she first saw him it wasn't what she was expecting. His voice felt like comfort, yet his words stung like ice. He was dull colors, close cropped hair, and a clenched jaw. And she knew he was broken. 

When they saw each other three months later he didn't recognize her. She had morphed into arms folded firmly across chests, eyebrows sloped into a natural scowl, and fingernails dug into forearms. The world around her was confined to shades of red, yet his name remained blue, and his voice still felt like comfort.

She was a challenge. He was consistent. And life was Hell.All Rights Reserved

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A New Day Has Come || l.s. by CuriousKat

Louis Tomlinson was trying his hardest to be strong. He was always depressed because of hate from the fans. Every night, he felt like angels were singing to him as he cried himself to sleep. His life was miserable and no one knew about it. That he was sad, he cried everyday...that his smiles, his laughs were nothing but fake. He held it in, unsure of what the outcome would be. His thoughts on his life often were: "What if I were to just not wake up today?" or "What if I wasn't here? Would the boys even miss me?" He knew it would never get better. If he were to quit the band...fans would eat him alive. If he continues in the band...hate would just continue to roll in. What else could he do that would stop the hate, the pain, everything...forever? He made up his mind once the boys found out...

Aftershock [ One Direction] by Wanderless

[COMPLETED] I let out a sob and ran up to him, slamming my fists on his chest. "Why did you do it!? I'm sorry just please explain!" He held me close to him until I stopped thrashing about and just cried silently into his chest. "Shh Please stop crying. It hurts to see you in this much pain." He soothed. "Then why Harry, why?" I said with every once of pain emanating from me. "I loved you and you left me. I loved you so much. My judgement was cloudy from the hurt inside my chest. It was a very dumb decision." "You are acting like its no fucking big deal! Your dead! You're gone from all of us! The boys are hurting so much! It was selfish what you did, but it was even more selfish what I did." "Please don't blame yourself. It was my fault, not yours." "Harry its all my fault. You wouldn't be dead if it wasn't for me." He grabbed my chin, making me look him in the eyes. "Now listen to me. I shouldn't have expected you to stay with me when the fans first started harassing you. I should have let you leave but I was being selfish keeping you with me. I just couldn't lose you. But once again I was selfish and left all of you. I'm so sorry." He looked down, a single tear slid down his face. I put my hand up to his face and wiped his tear away with my thumb. "Harry I missed you but now I'm here with you and there are no fans. We can be together now and we don't have to worry about anything." I said barely above a whisper. He looked up into my eyes and pecked my lips, leaving a tingling sensation from where his lips touched. "I wouldn't let that happen." Cᴏᴘʏʀɪɢʜᴛᴛ © Wanderless, Aʟʟ Rɪɢʜᴛs Rᴇsᴇʀᴠᴇᴅ

Dangerous(A One Direction Fan Fiction) by XAngelaX11

"Why are you doing this to me?" I asked him. "Because I can and I will." He said moving closer to me. "Why does it have to be like this. We can work something out" I said trying to step away from him. My back hit the wall as he continued walking closer. His face was a few inches away from mine and we both just stood there in silence. "Because...I am dangerous" ~~~~ He was always so used to being listened to. Being one of the leaders in the world's most powerful gang. He knows how to kill, how to hunt his victims and get away with almost anything. He was one of the most beautiful, but dangerous men in the world. He was someone who had the power in his hands to do anything he wanted. Will one decision change his entire life? Will he finally get what he needs instead of what he wants? Keep reading to find out what is the decision that could possibly change his entire life and why. {Will contain sexual content and strong language read at your own risk} Highest ranking so far: #72 in craziness

Nobody Compares by mmoore02

I watched as the love of my life ran out of the door with tears streaming down her face. There was hurt laced in all of her precious features.It hurt me to see her cry, but it killed to know I was the reason.I sprinted after her,no shoes on and rain falling around me. She was gone, possibly forever. I am the stupidest arse to ever live I scream out in the empty street. I was alone. After Niall wins back his love things quickly turn for the worst. What will the young popstar do when nothing seems to go right and suicide is always calling out?

How To Save A Life (H.S. AU) by lexdes_hiam

"I just don't want you to be near it okay?" Rebecca said. "She has a name," Harry said angrily. BOOK 1 OF 3: "Don't get angry with me! You're the one fucking with your best friend's fuck up of a sister," she yelled. I put my head down and ignored everyone. I didn't want to deal with any of this. "You know what, fuck you. Go to hell," Harry said angrily and then walked in here, slamming the door behind him. I raised my head at the sound, only seeing him walk towards us. The entire class watched as Harry sat next to me, his body slouched back and his foot tapping. ***** TRIGGER WARNING***** There will be lots of mention of suicide and self-harm in many forms. Please do not read if you are susceptible to getting triggered to said things.

If You Let Me In [H.S] by Kendyll_marie

Her face no longer bares a smile. Her cheeks stay tear stained, and her eyes are often puffy. The joyful girl I once knew is gone. I know I could make things better. I know I could. If only she would let me in.

I Can't Love You More Than This | Louis Tomlinson X Reader X Zayn Malik by MJLeclerc16

You never liked Math. You especially didn't like your old Math teacher. You always bunked Math, but when you found the new teacher was your ex-boyfriend, you knew you weren't going to be bunking or failing Math that year. But that also met hanging around with his friends. "It's sad. She used to be afraid to go to the club, she goes every week with him now. She never drank that much, but she gets hungover every Sunday morning. The worse thing is it doesn't even seem like he's forcing her into anything they do in this relationship. You don't seem like you want to know, but let me tell you. She's not coming back. The days that we used to tease her as your Mrs are long gone" ~When he lays you down, I might just die inside It just don't feel right 'Cause I can't love you more than this, yeah When he opens his arms and holds you close tonight It just won't feel right 'Cause I can love you more than this, yeah~ https://open.spotify.com/playlist/6taxFZrkhrCNr9AsKYReA3?si=6913e0bb8d5b4dee

Love Letters to Sally || Louis Tomlinson by sugarplum-hemmings

UNDER MAJOR EDITING! ☁ In which a man who has everything, finds himself getting lost in his own sadness. WARNING: Those who suffer with depression and or addiction be cautious while reading this story. This story I do not believe will cause anyone harm but I do warn those who are sensitive to depression and addiction must be warned. Please, if you or anyone you know are suffering with severe depression and are suicidal please call this number: 1 (800) 273-8255 (If you do not live in the US then please look up the number on the internet.) Love you all!

TWIST H.S. by unfuckwitary

Harry once asked me what was the most painful thing I've endured in my life, I couldn't answer to him back then but, hearing his desperate plead for me to hold on I got my answer now. ¨Hold on please, darling.¨ And for the first time since knowing him I wanted to listen to him only now I physically couldn't but I forced myself for him, for my ray of sunshine, for my angel. It took everything in me to open my eyes but I mustered all my energy and weakly opened them to see my favorite shade of green staring back at me, and almost as a reflex ever so slowly my lips curled up at the sight of him. However, at the sight of me grief washed all over his face. I'm here but it's as if he was mourning me. I've never felt so helpless in my life, I wanted to assure him that this isn't his fault, I wish I had the strength to. ¨I'm sorry baby, I'll get us out of here.¨ Watery eyes and a determined face promised me and the only thing I could muster was a weak smile. And with that he turned to face our aggressor. ¨My house, my chair, my wife,¨ At the sound of the last word my heart literally skipped a beat and I swear my eyes almost budged off my face when a second ago I could barely keep them open. ¨You better kill me before I fucking get free, you're on borrowed time and I fucking swear I'll have the time of my life making you pay for what you're doing to my wife.¨ ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- It's not the most ideal thing to be a mafia leader with two kids, and it surely isn't the most logical thing to fall in love with your enemy. -------------- A dark Harry fic with a little twist. Or maybe two.

Therapy || l.t. by Alex_stories

"Maybe we'll meet again, when we are slightly older and our minds less hectic, and I'll be right for you and you'll be right for me. But right now, I am chaos to your thoughts and you are poison to my heart." ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ This book contains sensitive material such as strong language, abuse, sexual content, death and depression. If you are not comfortable with such topics, please do not continue. All of this is, indeed, a matter of fiction. I understand that some of the events that will take place are real to you. If you believe this will trigger something, please do not continue reading. Read at your own risk from here on out. Alex xx

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A New Day Has Come || l.s. cover

Aftershock [ One Direction] cover

Dangerous(A One Direction Fan Fiction) cover

Nobody Compares cover

How To Save A Life (H.S. AU) cover

If You Let Me In [H.S] cover

I Can't Love You More Than This | Louis Tomlinson X Reader X Zayn Malik cover

Love Letters to Sally || Louis Tomlinson cover

TWIST H.S. cover

Therapy || l.t. cover

A New Day Has Come || l.s.

Louis Tomlinson was trying his hardest to be strong. He was always depressed because of hate from the fans. Every night, he felt like angels were singing to him as he cried himself to sleep. His life was miserable and no one knew about it. That he was sad, he cried everyday...that his smiles, his laughs were nothing but fake. He held it in, unsure of what the outcome would be. His thoughts on his life often were: "What if I were to just not wake up today?" or "What if I wasn't here? Would the boys even miss me?" He knew it would never get better. If he were to quit the band...fans would eat him alive. If he continues in the band...hate would just continue to roll in. What else could he do that would stop the hate, the pain, everything...forever? He made up his mind once the boys found out...