Zayn is in love with his best friend, and fellow band mate: Liam. But Zayn can't control his feelings for Liam, and so he turns to cutting his wrist to avoid messing up his and Liam's friendship. He wants Liam to love him back, but he can never seem to work up the courage to tell Liam how he feels... WARNING: contains fluff, self harm, gay love. If you do not like/ support gay love stories, don't read :) A/N: I edited and improved the story a bit :) Hope you enjoy!