TW: S/H, Depression, Anxiety This is a story about grief. I struggled with grief for a long time. It's something we all will struggle with at some point in life. This is about my father who I lost when I was nine and it just explains growing up with him. My father was my everything and no words could ever really describe the pain. If you relate to this, my heart goes out. Stay strong. 03/07/22 12/07/22 this is an update, I have included 3 more pages. I will continue writing and giving updates. Although, I have included some things which can cause massive triggers. So if you get triggered easily from S/H or depression etc this maybe isn't something you would want to read. I also deeply apologize if anyone has been through similar. I can't always promise it will get better only if you are willing to make things better. I wanted to write this story because I have always felt like no one understands me and just questions me a lot. It's hard to open up and trust people so putting it into a story like this can maybe answer a lot of questions. Like I said if you relate to anything in this. I understand you. I see you. I hear you and I love you. 15/07/22 Wrote a couple more pages about letters I left in my notes and I found them tonight and I was like i had to include these. I also talked about my favourite teacher a bit as she is a very important figure in my life. Thank you for 53 reads. Appreciate every single one. 16/07/22 I wrote another 2 parts regarding to the relationship between me and my gran then I wrote about my favourite teacher again... I still have loads to add to some parts. Thank you for 80 reads. Really makes me happy that people take time to read something i have spent time and effort writing. im a nobody and im not really important to many people. So it just makes me very ecstatic. I love you all. 17/07/22 This is completed for now, mostly because I cannot write anymore. It hurts. Although, I will be writing more stories about mental health.All Rights Reserved