My Mad Trans Diary
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Ongoing5m
Last published Sun, Jul 24, 2022
Yeah, I'm a transgender 22 year old dude with BPD, nineteen piercings and not enough tattoos.
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This is what I deal with, might not be what other borderlines specifically deal with, might be what a lot of people in general do deal with, honestly this is just gonna be a series of rants, depressing nonsense and my attempt at piecing together the messy skittle jigsaw of my mental health.
I will try to add trigger warnings where possible but I must advise you to take caution reading this if you might be triggered.
Thank you!
PS; yeah I'm Scottish so odds are, I'm gonna swear like a trooper at times, judge whether or not to read this accordingly.
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