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Outside where i live

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Well, I have moved away from my family, doing a job in a foriegn land. I am all alone and this is my journey towards something I have no Idea of. This is just some thing I write to create an Order, to remind myself that there is hope. ALL of this is me battling my anxiety as much as I can. As it is the only addiction I have. I can't lay it on some one else. As paper is patient that a man ever will be. SO it's just me trying to make sense of all these thoughts I keep encountering and helping my self out through some difficulties surrounding me.All Rights Reserved

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A Broken Optimist by mybookobsession_

She's a lost soul, searching for Froot Loops in a world of Cheerios. Emotions. Inflicted by words, Creating signals to connect those emotions. A pang in your heart, the dull ache of love, a tedious, meaningless thing to some. The entire thing to others. Confusing, at the least. All consuming, at the most. We bundle it inside, Hide it in boxes, In the deepest crevices of our persona, Then suddenly, it burst free, tumbling into the atmosphere, filling every hour, every moment. Words convey it. Words share it. Through words, our emotions are liberated. Disclaimer: I wrote this throughout the course of a year. It had its ups and it's down in emotion. It ends on a happy note, I think. It has some overdramatic things in which my past self annoys me sometimes. But it also has some good pieces of thought. The world sucks. I can't promise that it's not going to suck, Because it probably always will. But there will be times Where the good in the world Makes it suck a little less.

Barcodes ( Attempt Series 1) by vvernxxx

When life gets tough... what will you do? When you feel your world is about to shattered, who will you ask for help? When you have no one but your self, will you help yourself? Or will you end it? In the midst of the crowd where people has a lot to say to you, will you find the people who you can lean on? With them I your life, will they color it with such nice colors? With these question... I have learned that there will always be a strangers that could help you. Strangers that will light up your world. Strangers that will listen to you. Strangers that will give their shoulders for you to lean on. Strangers that will color your world. And strangers that will help you get up from rock bottom. __________________ Just trust me and you'll be fine. :)

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20 tracks for a beautiful mind by FareehaAurooz

self help book for everyone out there..... 1)cultivating positive thoughts Your thoughts have a huge impacts on your well being. If you want to be in happy mood then you have to see everything from a positive perspective ,in order to find the true happiness in whatever you do. There are so many self care help tips to evolve your Personality,in life you will face a lot of tough situation, tangled ways of life and many more but your good mind set or mentality could be very useful for you to adapt a new skills and personality development. If you allow your mind to stay out from negativity ,or to put all of your energy in doing something better then, That will add some colour to your life.worrying will only maximise the mess of your mind .And truely i have felt that the patience is one of the most important quality in every human being. you can't be happy if you can't bear it with patience when something unusual happens to you. There are many ways through which we can actually developed a positve mind set, do you want to change for better? Let's open these chapters to add some positive vibes in your mood and to uplift , *be your own sunshine. *analyse people around you . *believe in the beauty of having patience . *have clear visions . *be bold enough to raise your voice. and wise enough to shut it too(act according to situation) . *who you are you know this, don't waste your energy in proving yourself. Rather invest your time in evolving your career or dreams. *your passion will always triggers your Actions . *choose wisely whom with you Wanna share your time . *don't be dependent on another person for your Happiness . *your happiness is a your responsibility. *Be kind to others will make you a good human . *your life is already very good be thankful . *take charge of yourself . *be accountable . *be responsible for your own decisions . *don't blame . *be wise .

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KNOW ME by selinethoughts

I know you cry with silent tears, I know you lock yourself up so as not to make anyone feel bad, I know that you hide your demons under a smile, And you go through life terrified by what your mind treads And it tears your heart. But don't drown in you, Take out your tears Without Fear. The people who really love you It won't sink in your stormy sea And it won't let you sink, either And maybe I can't save you, But swim with you, And it's always goof to have someone to swim with. So please... Stay

how am i? (1) by natsistrash

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Pieces of Me. by beautiful_wish

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Behind My Eyes. by AmberLarmer

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