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Well, I have moved away from my family, doing a job in a foriegn land. I am all alone and this is my journey towards something I have no Idea of. This is just some thing I write to create an Order, to remind myself that there is hope. ALL of this is me battling my anxiety as much as I can. As it is the only addiction I have. I can't lay it on some one else. As paper is patient that a man ever will be. SO it's just me trying to make sense of all these thoughts I keep encountering and helping my self out through some difficulties surrounding me.
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