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Drowning ------ Depressed Tamaki Amajiki

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Time 12h 4m

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I laid in bed, staring at the blank ceiling above me as silence consumed me. Anxiety gnawed at the pit of my stomach, causing me to grind my teeth as I pulled the blanket over my head. I wasn't cold. I just wanted to hide. 

I wanted everything to go away.

I closed my eyes as I grew tired of staring at nothing, and submerged myself in total darkness instead. I wanted to get up. Of course I wanted to get up. Who would want to just lay here for hours? How boring. A ridiculous waste of time right?

So why am I still laying here?

Why can't I move?

My stomach hurts and I'm anxious. My brain keeps replaying neverending scenarios of fuckups and regrets I have, and I can't escape it. There's nowhere to run from it. I can't escape my thoughts. No matter how long I lay here to numb my mind. No matter how many times I hit myself in the head. No matter how long I avoid the people around me. 

In the end I'm still a coward. I'm still scared. I'm scared of laying here for hours, until the hunger or the blaring of my alarm clock forces me out of my room. I'm scared of getting up and interacting with those who see me for what I am--pathetic. I'm scared of barely scraping by every day, only to retreat back to this spot on my bed. Scared to repeat this cycle over again.


For the rest of my life, I'll be scared.


I'll be stuck in this cycle for the rest of my life.


The rest of my life will all be the same.


Drowning.


Too scared to swim.


Too scared to let myself float up.


Too scared to force myself further down.


Too scared to reach for help on the surface


So I just lay here



And drown



For the rest of my life



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✓The Only Spark In My Life (MuiTan - TanMui)✓ by Muichiro0san

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Catch Me If I Fall [BakuDeku] by katy_santiago

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I didn't expect anything like this to happen... just in minute everything shattered before my eyes, my world was falling apart. "what am I going to do now?!" Everything seemed so bland and dark after that moment. Everything seemed so... useless and everything was in pieces, small little broken pieces I couldn't repair.. "I'll be fine Mui, don't worry... doctors said that sooner or later I will be able to go back home" Those words that my brother said didn't help much... more like didn't help in the slightest. Every day I lived in fear of loosing another family member... the last family member, the last person I was staying alive for, the last person that helped me keep hopes up. "I am sorry" "My apologies but.. we can't hire you" "I am very sorry but you are not hired" Every single time I tried to get a job those were the only words that I heard... I couldnt get a job, the rent was already a lot of money and I had to pay my brothers medical bills too... I was loosing hope. Every single day was the same, waking up, going to school, trying to find work and crying myself to sleep... until one day... "you are a cute one, how about you'll give me some good time for a bit of cash~?" That sentence scared me but... I was in a need of money so desperately I... I agreed. From that point on I... I managed to get enough money but... I wasn't happy, I was feeling terrible, I wanted to die... every single time after someone fucked me I came home, exhausted, most of the time crying so much I passed out from exhaustion but... I kept on doing it... do save my brother... Life seemed so dark until I met him... Kamado Tanjiro.. new student in my class...