•what killed me• ~part one

He is suffering a lot he is lossing the batele against him self he can't win it .it either he loses or he dies trying to win it. its all just a bloody fight for nothing

He is giving his all, trying to have the best weapons and protection but its all for nothing he doesn't even know why he tries. He knows how its all going to end but he tries to make his life as long as possible but its not worth it if he's not living and all the battling definitely isn't worth it

He doesn't know what to do next ,how to continue, how to try to make it better and he dosent think that there is something but if there is it is berried deep inside his bleeding abd unwounded scars

then I got shot. right in the center of my heart but not with a bullet. It was the sadness and the endless pain caused over years that was slowly building up inside me.

I was left alone crying in my own pool of blood, feeling the blood role down my body. Then I took my last breath and I died all alone on the cold dirty flore.