Self Control
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  • Reads 7,293
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  • Parts 12
  • Time 1h 35m
Ongoing, First published Jul 17, 2022
"Every morning, I walked to the cafe for my latte and a glimpse of him. Madison Lewis. I come here just to see his face and my computer screen. This is the perfect spot to study and eat for forty five minutes before I pick up my shift at the campus Library.  I usually walk here from my apartment then to campus because I just like walking. And it's close enough. Luckily I didn't drink a lot last night because the hangover would've been a bitch. Also Avery didn't come home last night because like I assumed, he was in someone's bed and that someone was Bakari which was weird because I've only seen them speak twice.

Anyways, me and Madison shared a few classes in high school and we also share a few now. No we don't really speak to each other like that anymore but I like to think we're close."
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