This Burden I Carry [Phan Fic]

"p..Phil please.." I begged, leaning over the fence, outstretching my hand, "Take my hand.." He shook his head. "y..You don't care about me.." he whispered. He shifted closer to the edge of the large apartment building's roof. "But I do!" I exclaimed, "e..Even if I didn't, this isn't the answer!" Tears streamed down his pale cheeks, his nose red along with his bright blue eyes, which have turned dull and lifeless. "y..You said I'd be better off dead anyway.." he said, beginning to shake in the bitter snow. "I didn't mean it! Phil, please, I.. I love you!" "That's a lie," he muttered, not bothering to face me, "You said that I'm.. Th-That I'm worthless and I d-don't deserve to live.."