vent (?)

I'm just mourning around here, venting my problems. they keep intermittently in my mind, do bother me, do talk to me, do comfort me. but you can't cleanse my problem. they are already messed up and no longer free. I just wanna say being an eldest here in my family are quite exhausting, I tried to take it easy and nice. I passed every problem, I worked hard. I make decisions and I do have a schedule. which causes exhaustion. I seek affection. that's only what I seek.