Bitter & Sweet
JWritterr
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  • Parts 13
  • Time 2h 16m
JWritterr
Ongoing, First published Jul 22, 2022
Mature
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We all want to be seen.
  Do we not?

In a small town like Mary's Pond, there is only the people that contain the unknown mystery's
                                                                  - that is their lives.

  The world is ever so cruel to the younger ones around us.     They are on the verge of collapsing,    
                              while all they have ever been told is:
   The ones who try hard enough and play their parts, will reach their destination.-

          "Which sounds deep as shit, but really they just say that to get us to study hard and make some 'big numbers' in a damn office... or a grocery store, fuck if I know..."

This story is about Eleanor Sawyer and her friends,  
 about how each and every one of them has their own bagage.    How they deal with it... or not deal with it.

   The grown ups refuse to understand that times have    
    changed, people change, the world has changed.
             They refuse to hear their children's cries. It would always be "when I was young"-    It is not about them anymore, they haven't lived in this time, this generation.
       This they will not understand.

My targeted audience are teens/young adults who either struggle with.. (here it comes):
- de realization 
- eating disorders 
- depression 
- anxiety 
- non - exception of sexuality 

- and the fun things that come along for some lucky bastards, where all you do is 'get fucked' with some friends and have fun together.

This book isn't all emotionality, it is also about friends who come together at the worst moments of their lives, and try filling their hearts again with joy. 

And the mysterious, new class clown...

TW: this book contains strong language and sexual content!
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It just... happened? (boyxboy)

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Before I knew it my shirt was torn away from my torso and tossed on the floor, Charlie's doing the same. Our kiss intensified and I felt him groan against my lips. I swear to god, this boy is making out with me like his life depends on it! And that's when reality punched me in the gut... the words 'this boy' kept running through my head over and over again until it got through the thick fog of vodlka and whatever else was in those stupid drinks. I, Ace Loughty, was kissing a guy. A fucking guy. A fucking straight guy named Charlie Simmons who of course had to be one of the most popular dickheads in Meadow Ridge High. I am so unbelievably fucked. ----- 17 year old Ace Loughty was never one longing to be in the spotlight. In fact, he craved the exact opposite: being left alone. When Ace was 13, the tragic death of his younger sister Eleanor caused him to rapidly gain popularity and pitiful looks. He hated the attention. All of a sudden everyone wanted to be friends with the dead girls brother, they'd promise Ace he would never be alone that they would always be there for him, which he of course knew was untrue, they're all just hungry for attention. Sometime later the school moved onto other drama and gossip, things started to die down and people finally left Ace alone. He moved on with his life, convincing himself he was over Eleanor's death and as quick as the whole thing started, he returned to being lonely, weird, quiet nobody Ace. Just how he liked it. That is until 4 years later when he found himself sprawled out on a bed. With Charlie Simmons hovering over him. Charlie Simmons who was kissing Ace like he would die if he ever dared to stop. Which was all too true. Without kissing Ace, Charlie was as good as dead. *WARNING*: This story will contain themes of severe depression, suicide, abuse and somewhat graphic depiction of self harm. If any of these things may trigger you please rethink reading this story!! Started: January 21st 2020

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