"i'm scared. i'm scared because nobody has ever made me feel the way you make me feel. i'm scared because nobody has ever cared for me as much as you do" warning: this book contains mentions of, abuse, self harm, sexual harassment, assault, rape and other mature content. this book is inspired by "come out and play" by billie eilish. it's also inspired by "cinnamon girl" by lana del ray and "gilded lily" By Cults. Also the vibe of it is the MV for 'male fantasy'