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I'm cold. No, I don't feel cold. I'm just cold-hearted. He gave me everything. He saved my life multiple times. And I kept using him; he was being manipulated, but it didn't matter. He's so blinded by the idea of genuinely loving me that he couldn't see how dead I was. I don't feel anything anymore. I was cheating ‒ not physically, but emotionally. I still love him, but I no longer desire him. I imagine myself with another person ‒ someone who could sweep me off my feet. And in my head, I giggle. And I guess, my heart flutters every time this phantom, this imaginary Adonis, attends to me. This thrill that he couldn't give me and I couldn't share with him is eating me up inside. It always turns to sadness, then guilt. And then I lock my emotions in a chest, bury them, so I could sleep better, but I won't. I'm exhausted by the time I wake up, yet this shit replays itself every now and then because, I guess, I have to feel something sometimes. Right?
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It's not worth it anymore. The fighting, the hurt, the beatings. It was never going to be worth it. But for love...well love makes you stupid. And I loved him with all my heart. I met the real man who would save me. Like how Bell was saved from Gaston. Except she lived the high life and didn't fear for her existence after her first encounter. After my first encounter with Axel, and a dreamy one-night stand. The only option for me was to stay away from him and keep to Marcus. But Marcus is destroying me. *** "Don't you dare tell me how easy it is to leave and abusive relationship when you've never been in one, Axel!" Tears poured down my cheeks and all I wanted to do in that moment was crawl into the same hole I should never have crawled out from and die. "And I was heartbroken, and scared and anxious. I was worried and I felt weak, and I had no idea how I was ever going to come up with the strength. But I just closed my eyes and took a blind leap. I found you, Cordilia and I'll be dammed if I let that asshole take you away from me."

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