Living a Lie

I know that I didn’t pull the trigger. But what if was my fault? What if I did stop him from doing it? What if. I ask what if questions a lot. What if I pull the trigger, too? What if I’d be able to see Emmett again? Just…what if?

What if I die tomorrow? What if I forget to look both ways? What if it was an accident? What if it wasn’t an accident and people thought it was? What if Emmett didn’t pull the trigger? What if someone else did? What if…what if it’s all a lie?