Meditations In An Epiphany(The Musing Artist)

pretty much its i guess a poem of my ethos and how i view relationships now, and what i get from my new lovers. in that, well even though i only want the purely physical and will never be in a committed relationship again i think that while a lover is mine, and you know before i eventually let them go to actual relationships and to being in that, i guess... day to day role fulling love of boyfriend, girlfriend, husband, wife, etc.... because well theyre normal im the mad one so clearly going to push them to what they need and what they deserve ... any way i ramble now, this is just i guess a catalyst of ethos and well, my own view on love. like even though were a purely physical secret thing (the way i want it) that doesnt mean anttging, because when i kiss you im kissing you like i love you and when i make love to you im still making love to you and im viewing you like an object of art and soul. doesnt matter we are not in a relationship and that i dont want one. im pouring all of my soul and all of my love into every time we hook up. and thats okay. not that it isnt just safe too. but its okay. thats it i guess