There's No More Hope

"It's hard to trust when all you have from past is evidence why you shouldn't."

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My hands trembled as I realized he left me too. It happened again. My eyes went to the mirror in front of me. Tears welled up in my eyes, making my vision clouded. A blur figure, who stood with teary eyes was all I could see.

I shouldn't cry. It's nothing new. I'm too used to being left alone to be affected by this. But why are my eyes wet then? Why am I feeling like that night's repeating all over again? Why do I feel so broken?

The tears were about to leave my deep blue eyes but I tried to block them.

Comeon, Raven! Don't cry! You got through this before, You'll get through this again. Just keep your head up and smile.

Trying to look myself in the eyes, I gave a smile. To be honest, it could hardly be called a smile but I tried to keep it on my face for a second longer.

Just keep your head up and smile. Just keep your head up and smile. Just keep your head up and sm-

The smile fell as a sob escaped from my mouth, followed by tears running down my cheeks. My chest burned as I leaned against the mirror.

It hurt. His absence hurt me more than anything else.

There was a strange feeling. A painful feeling which I knew would never go away. A void No one could fill now. The void which grew more with the silence around my surroundings.

I let out an ear-bleeding scream, still chocking on tears.

Anything to break this silence.

Anything to lessen that void.

Anything to not be left alone. Again.
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WARNING
grammatical errors ahead!